it’s been a long time.

Well, it’s been a really long time since i blogged. In short, I had a secondary cancer scare, scans, a few melt downs because of it and then got the all clear. THANK F*&k for that! (I will do my best to go over that in a separate blog in detail.)

I suppose I should feel super motivated, you know to get up attack each day and make it count! but I haven’t quite got that mood in me yet. I do somedays and not others. I’m not 100% sure what direction I want my life to take.

I feel like, I have in some ways gone back to being to helpful to people. You know, doing things for people and getting little in return. Not concentrating on myself enough. I’ve never really been selfish enough, thinking my life and my objectives are more important than others. I do need to start placing importance on my thoughts, feelings and plans.

Now, I do realise, I’m normally super positive, but let’s be honest we can’t all be positive all the time, sometimes we just are, and sometimes we are down. But if you can identify and work through the off days then i see this as a good thing. And, it is what I am going to do.

June is going to be the month of getting myself straight. I have lots of plans and ideas (too many, i think), I’m going to work my way through my ‘S*&t’ and build myself a happy land. Where I am my number 1 priority.

What do I want to do today?
What do I want to achieve this week?
What career path do I want?
The beauty of having a year of not being my typical self, not overworking, running around like a headless chicken is that I can truly work out what it takes to make myself tick. And, maybe at 32 (i also had a birthday) I should know what I want to be when i grow up. ūüôā

So, through the month of June, I am going to get my head straight and work my path out.

Do the standard Goal setting, write it down, start working towards my future. Instead of fitting into what people expect and want from me.

June is about ME.

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